Again, more pondering.

So, There hasn't been much happening lately during this week. Orals were on Monday. God, how fearful I was. The fear of not knowing what to say. Helplessness left me with fake smiles. So anyways, here I am. Typing my thoughts into a little rectangular box. Watching words appear. I laugh at my indulgence of desire after which, sorrow seeps into me as I feel too fearful. Too fearful to accomplish those desires. Making them physical no longer ethereal thoughts. Yet, I know, some things must be done.

So throughout my reflection and daily life, I've noticed that I'm rather...

Possessive.

Envious.

Violent.

Perhaps, because of myself. The dark side, filled with hate, angst and I wouldn't know other things I've yet to even see. Has this all been kept within myself. Slowly gathering into an eruption? I don't know. Maybe its because of the thing I desire.

Like all humans, We won't ever be satisfied. We get the thing and we want more. More and More. To fill the endless void of our desires. Always devouring.

So, I've noticed I wanted most of the things my friends had. Contact, talk and other things that occur. Possessiveness leads to my jealousy. It gnaws and bites at me. Maybe, one day, it would it would get out. But I doubt that.

My violent nature is one that must change nonetheless.

Anywayssssssssssss, Bored as heck. Really wanna do something. Ain't got anything tho. Watched two movies and I'm hella bored now. Won't play because my classmates aren't online and thats insanely boring. Loneliness eh.

Damnable dreams.